Sunday, March 29, 2009

Getting my ego on the same page as my intentions

Here's what happened with my intentions:




#2. The painting went lickety-split, and it's all done. I had to get Davy to paint the very tippy top because standing on top of ladders reminds me I'm wingless.
But it's done!!! Yeah. Note: I finished at 2 p.m., rather than 9:30, or whatever artificial obstacle I gave myself. The point is, it's done!



#4. I'm not there yet regarding the food. There are these times when I lose my consciousness, and those are what I have to work on. I'm ‘fessing to feeding my fears. I have to start thinking that it's easy to stay conscious. I have to spend time imagining it so my ego starts believing it to. If my ego doesn't believe it, I'm sunk, for it's the one holding the belief.
Here's how I work with my ego: I ask myself why I can't have constant consciousness. In this moment, the answer I get from my subconscious, or my little-child-inside, is: Because unexpected things will come out of nowhere and I can't handle them. Do I want this???? NO! I want to handle everything that comes my way, elegantly and beautifully and for the good of everyone involved. Right now, I'm going to imagine myself being bombarded with the icky needs of others. Instead of deadening myself and responding from my default thinking, I see myself:
feeling each experience
deciding what I want that is helpful for all
imagining it happening
feeling the splendor of it happening
relaxing into knowing I have planted a healthy seed for a future experience!
I'LL LET YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENS!


#5. Person B called and is in very good spirits. This made me feel good, but a nagging feeling warns me I don't think things are OK. So here's what I want to experience: Person B calls with news that s/he has been asked to do something so in alignment with his/her life purpose, it's totally irresistible. And gleeful. So Person B doesn't have to go out and make it happen. Instead the good fortune comes to and seeks out Person B. It feels like a wave, much like when the whole Universe is helping something emerge and happen. Yes! That's what I want to experience. (Note: the graphic is Chinese for Double Happiness.)
I'LL LET YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENS!

#1. Also, an update on the dryer. Home Depot was great getting someone to fix the dryer, but the person they picked didn't want to come out because he thought it was a vent issue. Actually he told me to use my leaf blower, thinking I even owned such a thing. Frustrated, I decided all would get fixed quickly, and sure enough, outside my front door, I hear the sound of my gardener's -- leaf blower. I asked him to blow in the vent, and he did, and voila!!! The dryer now works!

Scorecard: Great - 2/4 Failure - 1/4 Neutral - 1/4
Here are my new wants for today:

#6. I want a great conversation with Person C. I think Person C has gone through some travails and irritations, and I think this affects Person C by holding him/her back and by making him/her unnecessarily angry, which is not good for the health, the other relationships, and life in general. I think we get angry when beauty and love are missing. Person C totally wants beauty and love to happen, but doesn't know how to make it happen. I'm going to help create it for Person C.
I'LL LET YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENS!


#7. I want the work in the bathroom to go smoothly, efficiently, and lovely.
I'LL LET YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENS!


#8. I want the upholstery of the upstairs chairs to go swimmingly, and that I stay present and get it done. I tend to stop when little problems emerge (that's that old default reaction when problems arise). I see myself being present, imagining what I want to happen, and it all happens smoothly and wonderfully, and I'm with the results, AND happy with myself!!!!
I'LL LET YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENS!

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